For a couple of weeks now I've been chatting with a girl. Another online thing, of course, but this time she actually lives near me. For the past week I've been arranging a meeting. It's been quite gradual because neither of us can make a decision about anything. Not sure that bodes well, but there you go. Eventually the date was arranged for Saturday night and I shuffled my usual parental visit to Sunday. I may be imagining it, but as Saturday night got closer she seemed to be getting less interested in the idea. I decided I would just see what happens.
At two o'clock she sent me a text message saying she had to cancel. She had a decent excuse and seemed genuine enough. She was very apologetic and for the first time she actually said she'd been looking forward to meeting me. She also said she wanted to rearrange for tonight instead. So I moved my parental visit back to Saturday night and so far the plan is still to meet up tonight.
I had thought I might hear from her this morning. That perhaps she might want to apologise again and check our plans for tonight were okay. But I got bored with waiting so I made the first move. And apparently she does still want to see me. However I only got a single line reply. Twice. "Yeah. Don't see why not X". Not exactly bursting with enthusiasm! So this leaves me wondering whether she wants to see me at all. Maybe it's just the way she is. I really don't know her. Maybe she holds back because she likes to take things slow. Maybe she's just not interested. Maybe there's someone else and she's keeping me around as a backup in case that goes tits up.
I'll just have to go along and see what happens. I expect by the end of the night I'll be no closer to having answers to those questions. But whatever happens, all of this has been a welcome distraction. It's about time there was something in my life to keep me from dwelling on the past. It's done me good. Even if it's only short-lived.
I'm not saying it will be short-lived. Just trying to keep things in perspective. It's only one date, after all. So watch this space.
tags: jay going out good things